Taare Zameen Par

I thought I would never write a movie review. Though I am not trying to write one. I just want to say I simply loved the movie. It remined me so many sweet memories of my childhood. The songs are above any desciption. Specially the number 'Maa' . After long time some movie really touched the core of my heart.

soda main whiskey

no brothers i am not big fan of whisky ..I might puke now if take any more peg ..but trust me I like the drunk me more than the normal me ..the diplomatic me ..who cares for so many things ..who cares what other gonna think about him ..whether if anyone gonna get hurt ..but this anindya knows what he wants ..and does not feel ashamed of that ..he does not feel ashamed to be a broken shit ...it's ok for him coz that's natural ..he don't need to pretend to everyone that he is stud ,,,he does not care of any shit ..he is good he is awesome ..this anindya is full of shit and he is porud of that ..what he has achieved by being a perfect man..nothing ..but some shithole ...and sadly those assholes are so much jam that he can't even use them .. but that's ok..isn't that's what he wanted in life to loose the precious gift of his life somehow ..so that ..the gift can live forevr through his incompleteness ..but shit now he know it sucks !! but what the fuck u can't get all ..u got eternity .that's a huge deal now u can't say u wanted something else .. shit my head is spinning ..lemme take some rest ..i can hear some guy is trying to sing kho gaya he tujhpe pyar sajna ina feminine voice ..and frankly he is sounding like a shemale ..but u gotta be diplomatic and priase him ..what the hell u will do that ..who cares honesty ..brb...

i am back ..and that reminds me somebody used to say wb >:D<> i am back ..that's gone ..nothing lasts forever ..whose song is that ..i guess a mere child have better memory than me at this moment .
there was a bong song ..sei raat rong chilo purnima .....chilo purnima batase ..shit i am fucking the lyrics ..but what the hell .. i guess the lyricist is long dead ..and he does not give a damn ..he might be too busy writing songs for indra dev ( yes i am hindu..oh yea Indian too) ...and might be rubbing his 3rd leg as he enjoys indra's dance festival .. .so moral of the story who cares if any asshole from earth is puking shit on Google blogspot !! may be someday someone will report my blog as bogus .and google will be in dilemma ..what they are supposed to do ..ok if fortunately if there is some geek in google ..i should consider putting some pic of a horny bitch in this blog ..so he might feel let's keep this blog .. it will be useful in future ..

ok enough !! you are right I will listen to you and go to sleep now ..good night ..

Hello Mr Prime Minister

Hello Mr prime minister you are one of those persons I really respect apart from my parents .. you once said you want to make India world's knowledge hub ..but problem is how you are trying to achieve that ..you are talking about creating more engineering college ..but give it a pause and think about it ..is that going to help u to reach ur goal ..u r creating a bunch of mechanical talent .. it's true India has lots of talent but only studying engineering is gonna make them dull and methodical ..u gotta encourage them in basic sciences ..that will increase the innovation ..not just learning to code in c++ or java .. you can learn java or c++ in 2 months even if you are super dumb ,...but basics of physics maths you cant .. so please encourage them in basic sciences encourage them to learn cream of science not some applied shit .!! don't encourage efficient robots ..make smart students ..who can rock in any field coz they have their fundamentals strong !! .. but if u see fact is India's good students are going for engineering none going for pure science ..u can have good job by that but how long ..we just going to be labour for developed countries ...loosing our Independence once again ..normal people can't see that ..coz it gives them money and for me yes it gives me money ..it gives me money to buy logan to buy civic ..but how long ..how we are different and how long we can have this edge over other developing countries if we don't make our base strong !! we are in our glory days ..it's the right time we utilize it to the right direction and make it a real knowledge hub not just a KPO or BPO .. you are an able man ..and I have full trust on you ..I know you might never read this article ..but hope someday u feel the same as mine ..u r from pure science economics ...best of luck !! I love my country ..
I am drunk today pardon my grammar or spelling but please do consider my intent ..

tell me a fable

One Sunday morning I was thinking what should I have for lunch today.. difficult question! I have eggs but com'on eggs can be kept in fridge ...you can have it anytime you want !! Let's have something more interesting !! what about pizza .. The good or bad thing about pizza is you eat it hot ....the hot cheese !! yummy !! you can't just keep it in fridge ..

Next Sunday ..again dilemma eggs or MacD ...com'on forget eggs ..put that in fridge ..it will remain good..

Next to next Sunday.. Now I am not left with much cash ..okkk .let's try eggs today.. Oh shit !! how come those eggs are rotten !! aren't they supposed to be fresh for months !!

I guess that's worst fable written in human history :D

can these two songs go together?

song 1:

Jibone ki pabo na bhulechi se bhabona ..
samne ja dekhi jani na seki asol ki nakol sona ..

song 2:

Main sochta hoon mera naam gunguna rahi hai voh

Romeo and Juliet

lately I am listening to Dire straits a lot .. fortunately i found a windows media player plugin which has can display lyrics for almost every songs ..even bollywood songs.
Among different singers i have listened ..Dire straits' music seems to have quite long lyrics ..and I found them really awesome ..

I am quoting a part of "Romeo and Juliet" lyrics ... will add new interesting lyrics later..

When you can fall for chains of silver,
You can fall for chains of gold,
You can fall for pretty strangers,
And the promises they hold.
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin, yeah!
Now you just say, "Oh Romeo, yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him".

black and white

if you observed in most bollywood movie ..heroine's current decent bf is converted to a evil personality just to accommodate and justify ..hero's entry ..can't it be that they keep the poor old bf as he was before ..i like dil to pagal hai for this reason. If you remember Lakshya they simply change the open minded bf to complete male chauvinist just to justify preety Zinta's dumping him and go ahead with hritwik. Now it's completely perfect for preety to feel for his old bf and get back to him but why can't that be done without making the temporary bf evil ? it's always a trend to portray one character as complete and the other black, whereas we are mostly gray. A friend of mine told me otherwise Indian audience won't like that movie. Is it like that ? or we have groomed Indian audience to like black and white movies compared to gray ones.

I need to go take a shower now, will continue this one later ..for sure ..

Stairway to heaven

i don't remember how many times i have listened to this song.. and today I realized all these times i thought ..it said ..'all that glitters isn't gold' where it is actually ..'all that glitters is gold' .. I was in class 11 or 12 don't remember .. i read this novel by Tilottoma Mazumder .."dal chut" .. I hope i remember the name properly .. this story has a girl .. Manasi ..i don't know why ..but i liked that character .. fyi manasi means whom u build in your mind .. it's not like building a castle of sand on the beach .. it's more like building something in your dream..and u have total control whether u want to protect that dream or not ..was there any reason for me explain all these ...it is not even a proper explanation .. anyway the thing about Manasi that attracted me ..that she was bit eccentric ..and she used to have this phase of depression ..and she used to shut herself out from everyone during that time ..and she knew apriori when depression was coming to her ...that really was bit strange for me .. first of all how can be depression be a regular event .. u r feeling good one day and the next day u start to feel depressed without much reason.. as a +2 student i really didn't understood it properly ..as i think about the story now i realize .. anyway I won't promote tilottoma M anymore now ..actually I found her next novel quite distasteful .. but for readers if u r looking for bit 'purki' u might actually like it ..she actually focused on incest stuff... anyway you can guess I forgot what i planned to write ..so i am just littering ..
Recently I read interpretation of murder and today I am feeling pain on my arms/shoulder.. first right and then on left .. now I guess you are wondering how the hell these two are related .. okie in that story the author explains a case of psychoanalysis, it's was like ..one day in the morning the girl(patient) realized her left hand got paralyzed .. she can't move it .. according to the docs her hands are perfectly alright but still she can't move her left hand ..and after psychoanalysis it was revealed the girl was suffering from some guilty feeling (read the story if u want to know what guilty feeling)..and she forgot why she was feeling guilty ..the moment she remembered that and the doc convinced her there was nothing to be feel guilty of, she was able to move her hand again .. pardon me Jed Rubenfeld ..I told your story in such a dull manner ..now coming to my shoulder pain ..i realized i haven't done any physical work whole day ..then why i am having pain then ?? so i tried to analyze myself .. it was my right hand .. but I could not remember anything i have done with right hand that would make me feel guilty .. then I realized i actually jerk off using my right hand ..but if that's the source of my hidden guilty feeling I would have had this pain long time before .. so this can't be the cause ..then i realized I tried grass today .. and while smoking i was holding that with my right hand ( natural ..no surprise here !! ) and I was not at all thrilled to do it ....and if i remember properly i had same pain last time also ..though that day i thought it's due to that bullshit written test.. seems I have to be careful from now ...or may be I need to give my imagination a rest .. LOL!!
I am feeling sleepy .. but don't want to lie down ..ohh shit i just realized i haven't changed my vest for last almost 2.5 days ..good night guys i need to go and change now ..

I found my mascot

Recently I got a new friend. and we are discussing about our 'talents'. And I actually remembered i used to sketch when i was a kid .. so i told her i can draw.. well i didn't know she sketches and paints at least 20 times better than me. I am attaching two versions of her drawing in yahoo ..

old b/w bollywood version

And then 2007 bang reloaded ...

For my old friends .. no she didn't know my nickname !!

silent whisper

When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

When i began to learn guitar .. this is one of the first songs I tried .I don't know how this song came to mind at this moment .. my mind is now really moving haphazardly ..that reminds me of some question asked to Yudhistir in mahabharata ..what is the fastest element in the universe ..of course Yudhistir answered it correctly ..Mind ..now about the song ..it reminds me of a Iranian guy Yaser. he introduced me this song. we were never very good friends nothing in common but our taste of songs ...I know my mind is now going to complete different direction, totally diverted from the direction i started with ..did it ever happen to you ..like at 3 am at night(?) when you are supposed to sleep..you know you gotta sleep...you have to go to office tomorrow ..but u still can't make yourself close your eyes ..you don't know why ..may be waiting for something .. but then don't at all try to find that out ..cause you are scared that you may be waiting for something you should not wait..you must not wait .. you try to do the stupid most thing ..you try to stop thinking ...but damn that's not possible ..mind is like that bubble of mercury .. have you ever tried to hold a mercury in your hand ..you just can't it moves around ..or may be a handful of dry sand .. the more you try to hold it tight the more you loose ..I don't believe in ghosts though i believe in god .. but what really is ghost ?? something that you can't see ..something that you can feel ..is it scary ..now that depends .. that reminds me a funny incident ..will tell you some other day .. though i don't believe in ghosts somehow I think I am living with ghosts ..coz I am scared of giving any identity to my feelings..I am reluctant to give it any shape ..any known shape .. so I am kind of living with ghosts ..
i guess this will be another entry to my list of incomplete posts ..

A little bad taste in your mouth

How do you feel when you come to know the most precious person in your life has shown you affection just to get rid of a guilty feeling or just out of pity ..i thought i would start writing again ...but somehow I feel this is my last blog ..

What If !!!!!!

Sometimes I wonder how we got the perception of beauty or perfection ...Who gave us the perception female figure around 36-24-36 is better than 39-30-41 .. or puppy is cuter than a rat ..or srk is more handsome than Johny lever .. or Priyanka Chopra is more beautiful than Mamta Banarjee ..even forget all these ..why do we think we look more beautiful when we are young ...I mean imagine a world where our sense of beauty is totally reverse ..won't it be fun !!! I mean Imgine Karan Johar is making KKHH and Johny Lever is the hero !!! gals dying for Johny Lever .. and In bengal there won't be any political party named TMC .. Mamta Banarjee has moved to mumbai ... and producers lining up outside her mansion .. wallpapers of her.. and Priyanka Chopra leading feminist movement in mumbai ..and ponds has introduced a new cream for early wrinkles .. guys and gals eating like anything so get some extra pounds !!! .. Now I haven't even said anything about how it would be if our perception of fragrance changes ...!!!! well you can use your imagination ..


to be continued .....

Attitude

Recently I have started bullshitting again ..i have started visiting different orkut profiles ...and almost more than 60% chicks and chaks have written in their about me ...I have my own attitude I don't need yours .. or have some pic in album with caption attitude and loads of exclamation after that .. bull crap !!!! If you have attitude why do you need to say that .. people will anyway come to know about it by interacting with you ... do you think Monica Bellucci needs to wear a Tshirt with caption I have boobs !!! lol ..aren't they quite evident ...I was so pissed of myself as soon as rain stopped went outside ..as I walked past by those building known for elite apartments ..I observed something really disgusting .. those asshole residents take their doggy to shit just between the wall and the street ..and those shitholes don't realize may be they have plenty of money so they never need to walk on streets but there are others who do need the street .. and these buggers might be members of keep_the_city_clean clubs ..

After all it's Poison

Even if you give me the sweetest food ...I will die .. even if give me the softest cushion i will still be able sleep only one more time ..even if it's the most fragrant flower i can't enjoy it's smell for long ..coz i am poisoned .. my lips are getting dry .. my face is turning blue .. my hands are getting paralyzed ... my heart beating is becoming slow ..slower... Even if you sing me the sweetest melody ..alas!! i can't listen it for long ..coz deafness is coming to me .. you bring me favorite desert but I lost my taste ... don't you understand I have venom inside me ... nothing can revive me now .. all this thing will only make me wish to live more ...which I can't ..

Tell Me Why ??

Why people cease to be the person he/she used to be .. I am just so much frustrated today .. you make someone feel so much wanted ..you make them crazy for you ..u make them drench in the shower of love .. you make them feel they can't live without you ..and then suddenly you act totally opposite .. The person you loved the most ..cries in heart in deep pain .. fights with her own soul .. and keep on dreaming that you will realize what you are doing to him/her ..and hold her like you used to do .. show the care for her ..that took her breath away once .. and you ..whom she can't even think of disliking ..whom she can't even blame .. coz you are so deeply enrooted inside her ..blaming you or disliking you means disliking her own soul.. please make me understand..why so ??????? why you can't just be the same person you were .. how can you ..not listen the cry from her inner soul...how can you not see even her anger is also full of love for you ..you know what ..you should do .. you should bent before her ..and apologize for all you have done ..and love her more than she can ever imagine .. heal her coz you have hurt her so very much .. make her smile like angel again .. don't you think that one such smile .. is worth doing anything for her ..

Optimism - The river of belief

Optimism is the most adherent element in the universe I guess. If it's with you once it just does not leave you no matter what ..!! Even you see the worst thing happening but it makes you forces you to see the brighter sight .. When things go too bad it makes u feel it's happening to make you strong ..a more matured person .. When the sail gets hard it holds your hand ..and gives you the dream of the brighter coast ahead .. If sometimes the coast turns out to be just an mirage ur imagination . it recreates your dream ..regenerates your broken dreams ...puts all the pieces together ..may be so that it can break again ..and it can recreate like an brilliant architect .. when the scorching heat is burning you ..It gives you the gentle breeze ..the believe .. believe in yourself.. believe in your eternal realization .. And it just never let you give up ...and break down .. uses it's all strength make you stand ..look into the sky ..and move forward ...sometimes you get so disgusted you ask him to leave you alone ..but it still slings to you...you try to kick it out ...but you remains with you like your loyal best buddy .. But It also has it's limitation ..it can make you believe ..but can it remove those pain which all the time pins your heart ?? ..If yes ..why you have stopped smiling ..why have that strange sensation in your belly ..in your heart which you never liked ...

Course: Strategy101

In your entire life you should always use some strategy ...even it is something where u don't want to play the strategic game and be only yourself ..and decide to dump any strategies ..and just move ahead knowing I don't need any trick game here .. becoz there are others out there who are constantly using their ingenious strategies ...to kick your ass .. . But the important strategy is to not to make other feel you are using any strategy .. and if you can do that ..then u r game buddy ... Now let's illustrate with an example ..you joined some wild orgy and buzzed off ...fucked bitches ..and holly shitt!!! you forgot ur protection ..now you have aids ..you gonna die .. so what you do ..you just can't die in disgrace ..you gotta make it glorious ..so you use some strategy .. you gonna do something that will give you sure death ( which anyway will come to u soon) but making you remembered loved or whatever feelings u like ..so die while saving someone ..or in army or shits like that and you die as hero ..and if your luck favoured ..they might call for a national mourning ... man!! that's called strategy ..
Now you might wondering what about expressing true feelings.. my suggestion keep that to yourself that will help you to revive your self esteem when u r down .. becoz unfortunately most of the persons will use their ingenious strategy and your expressing true feelings would end up you nowhere ..making you loose all the treasures of your life .. so if your priority is to preserve those treasures you gotta control expressing your feelings ..and act strategically ..
Now I know there are some who can't do this ...sorry dude ..you gonna have real hard time ..in your life ..

don't know why ... it does not even matter how hard you try

I don't understand how people open their heart in public ...how could someone expose their personal feelings and stand naked among a huge known/unknown crowd. How?? And surprisingly majority of people at some point of other are like that ..
Why are people eager to forget the pain .. why just embrace the happiness..
what I am writing ..meaningless scribbling .. why do I have to say the word I don't want to say ...and specially when that always creates a different meaning .. why do I have to ask those questions which do not have a answer ... just to hear something to make myself feel wanted !!! stupid me..

why I try so hard .. why can't I just stop myself doing the same thing again and again when I know it would only increase my despair ... why I keep on hoping ..

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
..........
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope
...........
No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly


I am too tired ..too tired to always standing on the rope ..and keep on bending myself differently ..in different direction to keep standing ..I am aching now ..

You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl

will write later ......