Stairway to heaven

i don't remember how many times i have listened to this song.. and today I realized all these times i thought ..it said ..'all that glitters isn't gold' where it is actually ..'all that glitters is gold' .. I was in class 11 or 12 don't remember .. i read this novel by Tilottoma Mazumder .."dal chut" .. I hope i remember the name properly .. this story has a girl .. Manasi ..i don't know why ..but i liked that character .. fyi manasi means whom u build in your mind .. it's not like building a castle of sand on the beach .. it's more like building something in your dream..and u have total control whether u want to protect that dream or not ..was there any reason for me explain all these ...it is not even a proper explanation .. anyway the thing about Manasi that attracted me ..that she was bit eccentric ..and she used to have this phase of depression ..and she used to shut herself out from everyone during that time ..and she knew apriori when depression was coming to her ...that really was bit strange for me .. first of all how can be depression be a regular event .. u r feeling good one day and the next day u start to feel depressed without much reason.. as a +2 student i really didn't understood it properly ..as i think about the story now i realize .. anyway I won't promote tilottoma M anymore now ..actually I found her next novel quite distasteful .. but for readers if u r looking for bit 'purki' u might actually like it ..she actually focused on incest stuff... anyway you can guess I forgot what i planned to write ..so i am just littering ..
Recently I read interpretation of murder and today I am feeling pain on my arms/shoulder.. first right and then on left .. now I guess you are wondering how the hell these two are related .. okie in that story the author explains a case of psychoanalysis, it's was like ..one day in the morning the girl(patient) realized her left hand got paralyzed .. she can't move it .. according to the docs her hands are perfectly alright but still she can't move her left hand ..and after psychoanalysis it was revealed the girl was suffering from some guilty feeling (read the story if u want to know what guilty feeling)..and she forgot why she was feeling guilty ..the moment she remembered that and the doc convinced her there was nothing to be feel guilty of, she was able to move her hand again .. pardon me Jed Rubenfeld ..I told your story in such a dull manner ..now coming to my shoulder pain ..i realized i haven't done any physical work whole day ..then why i am having pain then ?? so i tried to analyze myself .. it was my right hand .. but I could not remember anything i have done with right hand that would make me feel guilty .. then I realized i actually jerk off using my right hand ..but if that's the source of my hidden guilty feeling I would have had this pain long time before .. so this can't be the cause ..then i realized I tried grass today .. and while smoking i was holding that with my right hand ( natural ..no surprise here !! ) and I was not at all thrilled to do it ....and if i remember properly i had same pain last time also ..though that day i thought it's due to that bullshit written test.. seems I have to be careful from now ...or may be I need to give my imagination a rest .. LOL!!
I am feeling sleepy .. but don't want to lie down ..ohh shit i just realized i haven't changed my vest for last almost 2.5 days ..good night guys i need to go and change now ..