Tell Me Why ??

Why people cease to be the person he/she used to be .. I am just so much frustrated today .. you make someone feel so much wanted ..you make them crazy for you ..u make them drench in the shower of love .. you make them feel they can't live without you ..and then suddenly you act totally opposite .. The person you loved the most ..cries in heart in deep pain .. fights with her own soul .. and keep on dreaming that you will realize what you are doing to him/her ..and hold her like you used to do .. show the care for her ..that took her breath away once .. and you ..whom she can't even think of disliking ..whom she can't even blame .. coz you are so deeply enrooted inside her ..blaming you or disliking you means disliking her own soul.. please make me understand..why so ??????? why you can't just be the same person you were .. how can you ..not listen the cry from her inner soul...how can you not see even her anger is also full of love for you ..you know what ..you should do .. you should bent before her ..and apologize for all you have done ..and love her more than she can ever imagine .. heal her coz you have hurt her so very much .. make her smile like angel again .. don't you think that one such smile .. is worth doing anything for her ..

Optimism - The river of belief

Optimism is the most adherent element in the universe I guess. If it's with you once it just does not leave you no matter what ..!! Even you see the worst thing happening but it makes you forces you to see the brighter sight .. When things go too bad it makes u feel it's happening to make you strong ..a more matured person .. When the sail gets hard it holds your hand ..and gives you the dream of the brighter coast ahead .. If sometimes the coast turns out to be just an mirage ur imagination . it recreates your dream ..regenerates your broken dreams ...puts all the pieces together ..may be so that it can break again ..and it can recreate like an brilliant architect .. when the scorching heat is burning you ..It gives you the gentle breeze ..the believe .. believe in yourself.. believe in your eternal realization .. And it just never let you give up ...and break down .. uses it's all strength make you stand ..look into the sky ..and move forward ...sometimes you get so disgusted you ask him to leave you alone ..but it still slings to you...you try to kick it out ...but you remains with you like your loyal best buddy .. But It also has it's limitation ..it can make you believe ..but can it remove those pain which all the time pins your heart ?? ..If yes ..why you have stopped smiling ..why have that strange sensation in your belly ..in your heart which you never liked ...

Course: Strategy101

In your entire life you should always use some strategy ...even it is something where u don't want to play the strategic game and be only yourself ..and decide to dump any strategies ..and just move ahead knowing I don't need any trick game here .. becoz there are others out there who are constantly using their ingenious strategies ...to kick your ass .. . But the important strategy is to not to make other feel you are using any strategy .. and if you can do that ..then u r game buddy ... Now let's illustrate with an example ..you joined some wild orgy and buzzed off ...fucked bitches ..and holly shitt!!! you forgot ur protection ..now you have aids ..you gonna die .. so what you do ..you just can't die in disgrace ..you gotta make it glorious ..so you use some strategy .. you gonna do something that will give you sure death ( which anyway will come to u soon) but making you remembered loved or whatever feelings u like ..so die while saving someone ..or in army or shits like that and you die as hero ..and if your luck favoured ..they might call for a national mourning ... man!! that's called strategy ..
Now you might wondering what about expressing true feelings.. my suggestion keep that to yourself that will help you to revive your self esteem when u r down .. becoz unfortunately most of the persons will use their ingenious strategy and your expressing true feelings would end up you nowhere ..making you loose all the treasures of your life .. so if your priority is to preserve those treasures you gotta control expressing your feelings ..and act strategically ..
Now I know there are some who can't do this ...sorry dude ..you gonna have real hard time ..in your life ..

don't know why ... it does not even matter how hard you try

I don't understand how people open their heart in public ...how could someone expose their personal feelings and stand naked among a huge known/unknown crowd. How?? And surprisingly majority of people at some point of other are like that ..
Why are people eager to forget the pain .. why just embrace the happiness..
what I am writing ..meaningless scribbling .. why do I have to say the word I don't want to say ...and specially when that always creates a different meaning .. why do I have to ask those questions which do not have a answer ... just to hear something to make myself feel wanted !!! stupid me..

why I try so hard .. why can't I just stop myself doing the same thing again and again when I know it would only increase my despair ... why I keep on hoping ..

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
..........
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope
...........
No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly


I am too tired ..too tired to always standing on the rope ..and keep on bending myself differently ..in different direction to keep standing ..I am aching now ..

You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl

will write later ......